How long has it been?
Argh. I had to screw it up again today.
I'M SO SORRY, DOUGHNUT AND BANANA!
sorry I had to go to the hospital for the 8345789374859238th time because I'm a screwed up piece of shit hurr.
but I didn't get to go out or anything.
summer shoot tmr.
okay my life is alright.
Shakespeare said what's done cannot be undone, so I guess I have to face wdv rubbish comes my way.
uhhuh. I believe it will be manageable. It will be, because I believe so. (circular logic FTW).
there are so many things i want to do.
sewing, designing clothes makes me happy, even though right now, i suck at drafting patterns and drawing out the designs i want.
looking at pretty clothes on magazines and lookbook makes me really happy too.
but, could this be just another phase?
do i really know what i want?
while reading parakiss (hahaha of all the things i should be doing now), i had an epiphany.
sometimes, what you want isn't what you'll get.
if i successfully make it into fashion school, filled with hopes and ideals, chances are that i'll still end up having to compromise.
will i ever learn how to?
and even if i do make it into the school, will i adapt? is it really what i want? am i ready to move away from the status quo?
F, T, AJ came to my house today.
F said something about me gaining freedom in 5 months' time.
perhaps i should just complete my As, then go try for fashion school?
or should i just leave now and try to build up my portfolio, which could significantly improve my chances of getting in?
i realise i'm pretty much rambling.
i'm going to ask about the procedures for withdrawal from exams.
wish me luck.
x-posted to my blogger.
hahaha i have one and a half hours to slack and decay away, so here i am blogging!
ok actually i was staring at cosplay pics so hot it can be pr0n.
hot kuroshitsuji cosplays, anyone?
come feed me, sebastian!!!!!
MY iPOD JUST DECIDED TO FREEZE FOR VERY LONG!
oh it's okay now. i googled for a solution and it worked.
hahah my parents' wedding anniversary was just over, went out to eat tgt. pics up when i feel like it!
hahahah meanwhile im going to shit.
update: im madly crushing over ______. ahahahah *sweats*
I don't listen to english music so i don't get what's so great about what the beatboxer is trying to do. But it sounds cool. Even if i don't recognise the song.
Oh dear oh dear. Haha i'm happy! Even though i have so many things looming. :/
come on let a bishie fall into my lap!
should i cut my hair real short? Or wait till my lolita thing is over?
HONESTLY, I WANNA LEARN HOW TO DRIVE!
Damn angry. My taxi fare came up to 27 bucks. WHICH IS RIDICULOUS. Hello, i can eat a good meal with that money instead of feeling nauseous in a car k. Tsk. Ah, i don't see my eyecandy no.1 anymore. Eyecandy no.2 is still ok cause i see him in school. But it seems like i don't notice him as much now lei.
Should i cut my hair like park young hee? She's really androgynous yet still damn chio.
I wished i had the female equivalent of a handsome suit! Let's call it a pretty suit hahaha.
Oh as you can see, i'm not as emo now. Probably cause i'm rested.
Haircut and tattoo? :D
You'll only see who your true friends are in times of need.
the only thing I've succeeded in
is screwing up my life.